So I looked at my chart and saw that I had entered 37 cycles :-( I know that isn't all of them either because I wasn't good about keeping track in the beginning. For the first year or so all I did was track the start date of my cycle . .. those were the days of carefree bding - we just did it when we wanted, then it turned into temping, bding according to the schedule, miscarriage and more :-( During these 37 cycles I have seen countless friends, acquaintances and coworkers get pregnant and post their pictures on facebook, while I quietly had three miscarriages. I am a good friend and congratulate them, but I'd be lying if each time I post a Congratulations that I didn't feel a tug on my jealousy bone :-( My DH always says, don't worry about other people getting things because it is not your time . . . but maybe my time to be a mother will never come, and I have to accept the cold hard truth.
I should ovulate around New Years . . . maybe 2012 will be a better year. Pretty Please with Sugar on Top.
Hugs, Cyndee. I hope so, too!
ReplyDeleteBig hugs to you Cyndee. I know this is a loaded question, but have you guys talked about moving forward with some more aggressive treatment? I thought you had a post a while back about possibly doing IUI with injectibles. I don't mean to push, but I just wonder if it might be time. You are definitely in my thoughts, and I'm rooting for you big time.
ReplyDeleteI have thought about it . . . but I am being stubborn since I was able to get pregnant on my own before. I'm sure the extra stress in my life isnt making it easier :-( But 2012 is another year!
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