# Cycles: 37

So I looked at my chart and saw that I had entered 37 cycles :-(  I know that isn't all of them either because I wasn't good about keeping track in the beginning.  For the first year or so all I did was track the start date of my cycle . ..  those were the days of carefree bding - we just did it when we wanted, then it turned into temping, bding according to the schedule, miscarriage and more :-(  During these 37 cycles I have seen countless friends, acquaintances and coworkers get pregnant and post their pictures on facebook, while I quietly had three miscarriages.  I am a good friend and congratulate them, but I'd be lying if each time I post a Congratulations that I didn't feel a tug on my jealousy bone :-(  My DH always says, don't worry about other people getting things because it is not your time . . . but maybe my time to be a mother will never come, and I have to accept the cold hard truth.

I should ovulate around New Years  . . .  maybe 2012 will be a better year.  Pretty Please with Sugar on Top.

What NOT to say to the infertile this holiday

I loved this blog article and just had to share!! The article is written for the holidays, but the suggestions are appropriate for anytime of the year!

What NOT to say to the infertile this holiday

One Year Anniversary of last BFP

So yesterday was the one year anniversary of my last bfp :-(  Three pregnancies, three angels, three years, sigh.

Clomid Hangover?

So last cycle while taking clomid for the clomid challenge test I ovulated 3 days later than my "usual" date.  Now this cycle I got EWCM very early, and while my temps are very wacky I think I may have o'd on cd 13 - it works out for my travel schedule, but still it is a little weird.  Well, I guess I dont care as long as I end up with a healthy baby in the end :-)