Where were you one year ago?

I know.  I was having a miscarriage :-(  This one was my first 8 week miscarriage.  I was naive with my first miscarriage and at 5 weeks it is a lot easier.  I think with each passing week the miscarriage gets harder.  I have no idea how people who make it longer, say 40 weeks get through it.  8 weeks was hard enough, and my only solace was knowing that "at least it happened early".  Despite my pain I have all the respect and admiration in the world for those who suffered a loss after the "safe" 12 week mark.  I have respect and  compassion for anyone who has had a miscarriage - at any stage, but more so for those who were pregnant longer than I was yet I still feel sorry for myself.  Hopefully I get a rainbow baby before the due date of my 3rd pregnancy - which is also my 38th birthday.  But our travel schedule may not cooperate :-(  I do believe that things will happen when they are supposed to, but sometimes the waiting and not knowing is hard.  And there is a piece of me that thinks that I may never be a Mother.  Please let that not be the case.  But I have to accept whatever life throws at me.  I always have - why would now be any different?