Wow, I did not realize I haven't posted since July! Wow, time flies. I have been very busy with the business, and since the summer is a very slow time of year it has been very preoccupying and stressful (sorry grammar police, I think this last sentence was grammatically incorrect)
Well, today is the due date of my last Angel :-( It is also the day before my 38th birthday. *sigh* I feel kindof emotionally numb . . . I know I should have a huge belly right now, or maybe even have a newborn, but sadly I am not even pregnant. I am sad, but I think I am so tired of being sad that I just cant be that sad anymore. And now I am offically closer to 40 than 35 * double sigh*
It doesnt help that I saw a ton of very pregnant ladies this weekend. I am looking forward to cooler weather as at least I can delude myself into thinking they are just fat and not pregnant.
In general lately I have lost focus . . . It seems hard to concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes. Maybe it is a sign that I am getting old, or that I was crazy for buying a business while working full time and trying to get pregnant. But life is boring if you don't don anything.
I miss you my last angel . . . keep your other angel siblings company.
Miscarriage 3/2010 . .. EDD November 19, 2010
Miscarriage 7/2011 . .. EDD February 17, 2011
Miscarriage 1/2011 . . . EDD September 6, 2011
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