Another AF :-(

UPDATE - it hasnt been 6 cycles . . . it has been 7 full cycles, sigh.

So this makes 6 months since I had my last miscarriage and I am getting bummed because I really thought we had a chance this month.  We have had several months of really good timing.  I think we are doing it a little too frequently, but DH doesnt think so.  I called today to make an appointment with a fertility specialist which isnt easy with a HMO.  You have to get a referral, and I did that a few years ago but then got pregnant on my own before I had any treatment.  I am trying to figure out if I need a new referral or if I can still use the old one.

I have to face facts that I am 38, have had 3 miscarriages and after each miscarriage it is taking me longer and longer to get pregnant again, sigh.  I have to go double check the numbers, but after the first one (that was "only" a chemical pregnancy) I was pregnant again 2 months later . . . then after that one it was 4 or 5 cycles . . . and now it has been 6 cycles and I am still not pregnant, sigh.

I guess it is hard too because I just ate at a restaurant that I went to right before I lost my last angel and as I was reading the menu I remembered that there were a lot of items with Gorgonzola cheese and I was avoiding those because I was pregnant the last time I read the menu. 

Don't mind me I am just having a little AF has arrived pity party . . . I should snap out of it soon.  I am thinking a bottle of wine this weekend will help.